I want to break free

Can't find an appropriate song title for todays blog. Or at least for where I plan on starting it. I thought I had food poisoning cos i was sick all sunday night and monday... but seems I have gastro actually. So the only song that seemed appropriate was unwell by matchbox 20... but i've used that before when i was sick.

I suppose there really isn't much to say about my being sick except that I'm sure it's doing wonders for my waistline lol. I Didn't eat anything on monday and ate very little yesterday and almost everything i ate on sunday ended up painted on the walls of the hallway :S.

Currently Mel is reading all my old blogs... LOL so she'll be reading this one very soon too. How weird. Hi baby. :P

Kinda scary. Wondering what thoughts have run through my head in the last 4.5 years that could incriminate me :P

oh well whats done is done... reading old posts is funny as.

smoke on the water

wow.. I'm posting from my phone woot! Not something i'll regulary do cos its a nightmare to type with a phone but cool still. New phone.

Wakin' up at the start of the end of the world

Our brains are very interesting things. I swear alcohol can tempararily boost some parts of the brain. On several occasions, I've come in smashed at 3am and finally realised what I have been doing wrong in an assignment. Though I was just looking at my blog today, at the previous drunken comic post thingo. I don't entirely remember doing it, well I just do. But I had to look up what "Despondent" means. Now that strikes me as a little odd.

Saturday night was fun... at least until len and daz had to go home and the mood was just kinda dull. I drank a fair bit, but I didn't really feel drunk. Was odd. Though when I woke up I felt a little tipsy.

NEWEST COMIC

Despondent... it's a funny word... summed up my day... though alcohol fixed it

You Complete Me

Please note this was created entirely after karaoke so im slightly drunk. Also look up the mathematical definition of completion or Cauchy sequences to understand this. A drunken explanation is...

The completion of a set, is a bigger set (or itself) such that all Cachy sequences converge in this set. A sequence which converges is a sequence of numbers... say 1, 2, ,3 ,4... is a sequence... though a sequence which gets closer and closer to anotyher point in the set... say 1/2, 1/3, 1/4, 1/5, ... gets closer to closer to zero. so it converges to zero in real numbers.. however is it only cauchy in positive numbers since it gets closer and closer to a number which isnt in the set. Ok so a sober explanation would be better. But you get the jist

and example of completion.... Take the set of fractions.... there is always a number between any two fractions which cannot be expression as a fraction... so teh set of all (real) numbers is the completion of the fractions.. since it fills in the gaps essentially... so all cauchy sequences converging in the combination of two sets implies that one set it the completion of the other.

Jason... you shouldnty have told me to make another comic when im drunkish... remind me and i'll think of one people will get tomorrow...

N.B.

All non-convergant Cauchy sequences in me, converge to something in Mel. :)

I like this one :D... she's a keeper. Any thats the plan!

I'm gonna buy a gun and start a war...

Home remedies are funny. They use a saline nasal spray to help unblock sinusses, so occasionally I put water on a plate and pour heaps of salt in and burn the fuck out of my nostrils by snorting the strong salt water. It does help alot of shit come out of my nose but I don't really know how well the method works....

I'm sure its funny to watch

Just to hear you breathin'

Today I was a good boyfreind... I just did the nicest thing I've ever done for a girlfreind before I think.

I burnt a cd with "Aerosmith - I don't wanna miss a thing" on it.. Which has been deemed mine and Mel's song. Looked up the address of her work in Pakenam and headed down there. I bought my first bunch of flowers ever (I've bought single flowers before, but I'm pretty positive this is the only time i've ever bought a bunch). Then on her break I msged her saying come outside and was standing there with a bunch of orange roses and the song playing from the car.

I bet nobody beleive me :P

That's me in the corner, thats me in the spotlight

"You can do anything if you set your mind to it"

For many people I beleive that is true. I beleive I am one of those people. I just can't set my mind to anything. This morning I got out of bed at 11.30. I have a very good mathematical/logical brain, and a good body type under the excess fat. If I had the motivation I really think I could be just about anywhere in the field I enjoy and it would be very easy for me to lose the weight I've always hated and become fit. It's stupid, I spend more effort complaining about not being motivated than getting up and doing something.

I seem to always relate myself to Jude Law's character in Gattaca (Eugene/Jerome). I'm not saying im perfect or anything, but I feel like I could do so much if i only could be bothered.

This is all i was thinking while watching "Hairspray"

This is why I'm at uni

This thought often crosses my mind... Is it clear enough? my drawing is too crud i think sometimes... If its not clear enough the image name should give it away anyway lol

as promised... real post coming soon

Aperture Science Handheld Portal Device

Can't wait for the orange box.

Bouncy Balls!

Ok so sometime soon I'll do a real post.

Smooth...

Perfect Harmony

A harmonic function on a set can only achieve its largest and smallest values on the boundary of the set.

Fuck indeed

Ok so this is a joke i read on a geek site somewhere before.. But i like it.

At least I entertain myself

Ok so I got bored, and this thought entered my mind and I felt compulsed to share it with the world. For those interested in getting it, look up "pair production" or "electron-positron pair production".

Summer Love

Well im officially fucked, exhausted.

I just felt like going for a run. So I did. Man im unfit.

Exams are over. Can't wait for my results. Here is a brief summary of how I went this semester.

Started off enrolled in 5 subjects and "the essay".

With two weeks to go I dropped one subject because I was gonna do shit either way.

I spent 21 hours the day/night before the essay was due typing up all 17 pages of it.

One subject was 90% coursework based, which I didn't know til the end when i realised there was no formal exam. So while I got 80/90 on the coursework most people got between 87 and 90 on that so I came out good, but relatively bad. Also the informal exam which was him asking us questions in his office on an individual basis to see how we coped coulda went better.

Two subjects were 3rd year subjects which should have been really easy. One I barely attended and did find it stupidly easy. The other I was sitting on something like 48/50 before the exam which was weighted 50 percent. But since I had to sit the exam seperately from everyone else and they all had the chance to find out something that was required for the exam I was severly handicapped and missed an entire question out of 5 or 6 questions.

Finally, my other subjects mark comes from a take-home exam which was weighted as 100% of the subject. It was insane. Didn't get anywhere near as much as I'd hoped done but the other two people in the class felt the same so that could go any way.

Now I await results and soon I'll go in and figure out what im gonna do for this thesis.

Other matters of business.

I've been trying hard to get Mel to fit into "the group", (perhaps "the set" might be a more adequade description, only ben and those bored enough to wiki will entirely get this one :) )
So yes trying to get Mel to fit in, but it's proving quite difficult, and really making me realise how disjoint the group has become. Perhaps the group is more like a union of groups. Each group is associative amongst it's elements, but two elements from different groups are not neccessarily associative. Sorry for the odd mathematical alalogue, just the word group has different meaning to me these days.

Anyways, what I mean is not really everyone gets along these days and it can be awkward as. Not only that but it feels like it's becoming close to that point where everyone starts being an adult. How weird. I mean, "the boys" have been in that place for a while now being somewhat adult/responsible, with J to be joining them in what I beleive to be like a week. (confirmation?) Lennice and Daz have been living together for ages but now finally have their own place and their own furniture and these days we go out for dinner instead of getting drunk. Amy seems to have found what looks (at least externally) fairly stable, like a propper adult relationship. I'm pretty sure most of you are starting to feel like your doing more adult things. I don't think it'll be long before everyone is looking for their own place and friday/saturday nights will consist of dinner and drinks, and maybe a card game or something.

I hope I didn't offend anyone leaving people out, just mentioned a few names as examples, I think everybody is growing up though. I personally can't wait to get out of home these days. But a current lack of employment makes that a little difficult. I just hope to christ I get this PhD money next july!

Hey there Melinda

I've got so much left to say, if every simple song i wrote to you would take your breath away, I'd write it all.

Ok so she doesnt actually read this, oh well. :) we've only been going out for 3 weeks lol it feels longer though.

Ok I planned on putting something far more constructive here, but im soooo fucking tired that I don't think i possible can... tomorrow

I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever...

My last exam is tomorrow. Haven't really studied unfortunately. I wish I got some motivation back. Seems like I keep trying to study then I get distracted and end up going to see Mel.

Gotta pick a project pretty damn soon too. I can either keep looking at the paper I did that essay on. Otherwise I'd like to look at doing something a little more original if possible. Though I have to make sure i dont bite off more than i can chew so to speak. Realistically I should be looking to optomise my marks, because I need "first class honours" to be even eligable for a PhD scholarship, which is kinda scary. While it is possible to do a PhD without the scholarship I don't think many people do because I don't think I could last another 3-3.5 years without an income. It turns out those scholarships are actually pretty damn decent too. From what I gather it works out to be somewhere in the vicinity of $350 a week. I can be happy with that :D

Anywho I should really look at some notes before going to bed and I should be asleep in 3 mins if i want my recommended 8 hours sleep prior to this exam.

If you could only see how blue her eyes can be...

It's another one of those nights... Got another major assessment due tomorrow morning.. worth an equavalent mark to that giant essay i had.. this one in the form of a take home exam. Like always I've put it off for ages. Now I have til 11am to hand it in. However it's a little less than complete. Fortunately for me, the other two people in the class are having similar difficulties.

Here is the fruit of my last (and prefferably only) 21 hour stint.

My Essay

Not very understandable... But you get the general idea. Also I have yet to read over it myself.. and it's well since submitted. It's likely ridden with typo's, poor grammar, bad spelling and maybe total nonsensical sentances.

For those who may not be aware, (I'm sure most people who actually still read this would know) I have a girlfreind. Mel and I have been officially dating for 2 weeks. Though unofficially for a little longer. It's going really well. Sorry if i've been a bit of a hermit recently. It's not entirely her fault. As alot of uni shit has piled up lately too. I will try to bring her out with folks sometime soon if anything is being done anytime soon.

As for now, back to maths.

Captains Log 21/10/07

Starbucks 9 approaching.
Ocean madness setting in. I cannae reach the control panel.

2 stminades, 3 red bulls, 4 meals and 5 litres of ribena.

The world was our burrito.

I've been sitting here typing and mathematicizing for 15 hours with the exception of seans and mels visits. My 15-25 page honours essay that I've had since july to do is due tomorrow. Potato croquets are good.

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH Cobras

Played it til my fingers bled

The deadline for my essay is approaching fast. I have one week to hand it in.. and Until thursday to do my oral which has to go for half an hour on the topic. Im boned.

In other news I have my guitar now.. And I also have slightly hardened, bruised and split fingertips. Ideally I should have an overworked brain instead but playing the guitar (trying to play the guitar) is fun. (sorry got distracted so no real post today)

Those were the best days of my life...

Standing in the spotlight

I bought myself a grey guitar
I'm never gonna be lonely


As the included lyrics from Mr. Jones suggest, I bought myself a grey guitar. Should arrive sometime next week. The sooner the better. I've decided I'm learning to play guitar. I dug out the old one which seems somewhat smallish and is missing a string and the remaining strings and crud and tuned it as best I could figure out how to, as as best as I could do for a 5 stringed guitar.

And so far I've kinda got the hang of californication, blister in the sun and the intro to hey delilah... Can't find many songs that I dont need all the strings for

Didn't go to uni today... I've been pretty fucking down lately

Just plain tired

This is the most recent comment on a post down a bit, I figured it's point I'd like to keep around for a bit:

""Jason said...
I both agree and disagree with Shaz; woman do tend to love geeks to an extent, but that doesn't actually imply attraction or anything that's particularly helpful for a guy.To take the Superbad example of Evan, pretty much every girl in the theatre had the same sort of "awww, that's so sweet/poor guy" style reaction to the scene where he goes off by himself to get drunk so that he won't be taking advantage. I'd be willing to bet a relatively small percentage of girls in the theatre would say that particular character is attractive to them or someone they would consider dating though.""

Shaz's comment for those who havent seen it can be read a few posts down, figured it was a bit too big to put it all here. But basically said, chicks dig geeks.

What I also must add, is that Evan from Superbad wasn't entirely your stereotypical geeky kid either. Mostly because his character was specifically written to be liked. Geeks are often the best freinds of girls, the ones who the girls think are gay and had no chance at all with them. But I'll leave that open to debate if you like

Everybody wants respect. Just a little bit...

Let me begin by responding to both Shaz and Sean's reasonable sized comments to my last (post)

As far as I can tell, geekyness actually gets you nowhere. It's since I've stopped acting geeky in public that I meet new randoms girlies. But as Sean pointed out those ones aren't any I'd settle down for. But I was getting at with the 'selection' which ok so maybe not a selection, but an 'option' would be a better word for it. As in I could become a man slut if I so desired. And thanks for the nice words though Shaz.

I think your right on the money with the confidence = smashed = chicks thing LOL. Women don't run from you Sean, unless your drunk and seeing how many asses you can grab in a single lap :P

Now for the new stuff. The nostalgic friday hungover post.

Been a while since I've had a big thursday. Was good. Except for the hangover which is actually mostly gone. Towards the end of the night there was some chick who kept trying to dance with me, really dunno where she came from. Apparently somebody knew her and the guy who she was occasionally kissing but then kept telling me how she wasnt actually with him and she was single. LOL. I can't remember where I was and who I was talking to most of the night. Mel and her freind and the guy her freind was hooking up with showed up at flannies at about 1 or something and I was talking to them for a while. Then Meagan decided we had to talk, after managing to ignore each other for the whole night up until then. Which was annoying as and I ended up telling her to leave me alone again. Sigh. I wouldn't mind it if everytime we spoke she didn't tell me how much I've hurt her as if there was something else I could have done! Well I've come this far without a paragraph break so fuck it... There was some dude staring at mel and her freind and he grabbed mels freinds (henceforth steph) ass. And he kept staring at me when I went over to sit with mel when they were in a booth... So me being the very tactful person I am, said "What do you want?".. several words were exchanged and he was in my face with clenched fist ready to hit me. And as cool and calm as anything (while he was ready to explode in rage) I leaned up to his ear and I'm like, "Mate... Do you have any idea who I am?" LOL he stayed in my face for a while until the bouncer took him away and I explained to them what he was doing and they said if he comes back over to tell them and they'll throw him out. And as expected he came back over and tried to apologise and make freinds and held out his hand... And I was like like... nah i aint touchin that hand and turned my back on him... and he almost exploded at me and then they threw him out :D Good times. It's a wonder I havent been hit yet.

Adios

Attack of the She-Ninjas!

They stole our idea! CLICKY

All eyes on me will be met

As promised. Hopefully this should result in a real post.

Normally I dream roughly twice a year (a dream I know I had when I woke up). I've had three nights of dreaming in the past week. The first one was either one really really fucked up dream or 3-4 seperate slightly fucked up dreams. Dunno what this means really. Oh well.


Recently being single hasn't entirely been exactly what I expected of it. Pretty much as soon as I split with Meg, I've been seeing alot of this Mel chick. Really don't know what to do there, it feels like we're almost dating as much as I've tried to keep it at a slow pace. I think it's too soon for me to jump into a relationship again. I'm not entirely sure on whats changed in the past year to 15 months. But suddenly girls have actually liked me. I mean, watching superbad last night sadly reminded me a little of highschool. I could totally empathise with the kid with the high voice... So why all of a sudden does it feel like I have a selection when it comes to girls?

Prior to dating Meg I had opportunities with 3 other girls in the span of about two months. I don't think any of them were really for me anyways. But now what does it matter? Because in reality I'm not going to meet the person I'm going to marry anytime soon. So why even date? Should I just through my morality (yes I have some beleive it or not) to the wind and just pick up randoms whenever I can? (Sean isn't allowed to answer)

I still reckon I'd be like the high voiced kid though if I ever went home with a random (or even semi-random)... I'd wuss out like a sissy. So maybe that does narrow my options down.

I also have way too much going on at uni atm really to be blogging atm let alone trying to worry about my love(or sex as applicable) life.

New Puzzle.. Real post To follow soon

Let yourself go...

Ok seems i've cheaped out a little bit on this one... but hey its cool... Good times

THINK GEEK!

Hey if anybody wants anything from ThinkGeek then comment... I'm thinking about getting people to chip in for postage and get a whole lotta crap sent over... Geeky goodness

A long long time ago

I can still remember how that music used to make me smile.

Ok... I've hit the drinking too much phase again... gotta get out of it real bad, cos I'm finally putting lots of work in at uni while im not hungover. But hangovers are increasing in numbers and size...

Sigh.

The trouble with me

Well before we begin... here's another little puzzle for anybody interested. Most of it is pretty easy to figure out... Just one little detail that might need some googling.

Everything is related this time. (except the border... that's just a border)

Moving right along:


For those who don't know, (I'm sure most do by now, but I often forget who actually reads this) I broke up with Meg on saturday. Nothing more to be said about this matter here.

Saturday night was scotty's outting for his 22nd (his actually bday is today). Happy Birthday Scotty!

Saturday night was the messiest the whole group has been in a LONG time... Probably ever. I beleive I was the messiest person there too so I don't recall alot of things. But we got smashed at scotts house really quickly before heading to the station. Then I was pissing out of a train. Then i was on the bar at icon. Then i was on the floor at icon. Then i was in a locker of some descriptiong. Then i was at home. And at some point I kissed lennice's freind mel whom i met the week before who came along for the night.... So if somebody would kindly fill in the other 8 hours of my life, feel free :)

Oh we stopped at cheltenham station where we all grabbed erins boobs and i passed a mouthful of booze into rhiannons mouth... (GROSS!!!)


Three cheers for alcohol!

A little puzzle

Winner gets JPG trophy...

And honour.


Sample trophy:

Oh yeah! Giggity goo..
Ok so maybe just do it for the honour...

Identify the image below. All componants of the image.

N.B.

It's not just totally scattered crap... It should be fairly easy to figure out where they are from... You know it's the first one...

C'mon somebody put some thought in

FREE2K

BOOYA!!

Is still echoing in my head. Seems my average WAS high enough... See HERE.

Today I went into uni for my one class this morning. Didn't hang around all day like I normally would do on a tuesday. But when I was leaving the office lady called out to me to come into her office. She handed me a cheque for $2000 and said congratulations. W00T!!

I'm not crazy,

I'm just sick as...

Well ok not so much as sick as I was.

For those who don't know. I've been ironically (spelling?) sick since our mass sicky day. Couldn't get out of bed on wednesday/thursday and still struggling to stay upright for too long. Also been getting the sinus headaches I was getting in year 12 when they thought it was migranes.

So I've missed quite a bit of uni... I don't even have the attention span to read anything while i'm here.

Ok Cbf making this a reasonable post either

Paint your palette blue and grey

Ok first somewhat real post for this new blog.

I know everybody hates changing the links... Deal with it. :)

I decided I want to keep all my old ones so I'm going to keep making new blogs whenever I see fit. I was planning on seeing how long it took people to figure out what my background was, but since I told a few people already I guess there goes that. Though it does give me a good idea... I might put little pictures up somewhere and see if anybody can figure out what they are. Hmmm first I sleep. But tomorrow or the next day I put something up here for anybody bored enough to think about to guess at.

Actually I cbf with a real post now... Do I want my song lyrics yet? Why not. Line added.

Dismissed

This is just a dummy post

As the title suggests; this post is just to fill space. To have a look at what my blog will look like with content as I'm designing it.


On the Proof of the Positive Mass Conjecture
in General Relativity
Richard Schoen and Shing-Tung Yau

Abstract. Let M be a space-time whose local mass density is non-negative
everywhere. Then we prove that the total mass of M as viewed from spatial
infinity (the ADM mass) must be positive unless M is the flat Minkowski
space-time. (So far we are making the reasonable assumption of the existence of
a maximal spacelike hypersurface. We will treat this topic separately.) We can
generalize our result to admit wormholes in the initial-data set. In fact, we
show that the total mass associated with each asymptotic regime is nonnegative
with equality only if the space-time is flat.

0. Introduction
This is the second part of our paper on scalar curvature of a three-dimensional
manifold and its relation to general relativity. The problem in general relativity
that we address is the following: An isolated gravitating system having nonnegative
local mass density must have non-negative total mass, measured
gravitationally at spatial infinity.