I'm gonna buy a gun and start a war...

Home remedies are funny. They use a saline nasal spray to help unblock sinusses, so occasionally I put water on a plate and pour heaps of salt in and burn the fuck out of my nostrils by snorting the strong salt water. It does help alot of shit come out of my nose but I don't really know how well the method works....

I'm sure its funny to watch

Just to hear you breathin'

Today I was a good boyfreind... I just did the nicest thing I've ever done for a girlfreind before I think.

I burnt a cd with "Aerosmith - I don't wanna miss a thing" on it.. Which has been deemed mine and Mel's song. Looked up the address of her work in Pakenam and headed down there. I bought my first bunch of flowers ever (I've bought single flowers before, but I'm pretty positive this is the only time i've ever bought a bunch). Then on her break I msged her saying come outside and was standing there with a bunch of orange roses and the song playing from the car.

I bet nobody beleive me :P

That's me in the corner, thats me in the spotlight

"You can do anything if you set your mind to it"

For many people I beleive that is true. I beleive I am one of those people. I just can't set my mind to anything. This morning I got out of bed at 11.30. I have a very good mathematical/logical brain, and a good body type under the excess fat. If I had the motivation I really think I could be just about anywhere in the field I enjoy and it would be very easy for me to lose the weight I've always hated and become fit. It's stupid, I spend more effort complaining about not being motivated than getting up and doing something.

I seem to always relate myself to Jude Law's character in Gattaca (Eugene/Jerome). I'm not saying im perfect or anything, but I feel like I could do so much if i only could be bothered.

This is all i was thinking while watching "Hairspray"

This is why I'm at uni

This thought often crosses my mind... Is it clear enough? my drawing is too crud i think sometimes... If its not clear enough the image name should give it away anyway lol

as promised... real post coming soon

Aperture Science Handheld Portal Device

Can't wait for the orange box.

Bouncy Balls!

Ok so sometime soon I'll do a real post.

Smooth...

Perfect Harmony

A harmonic function on a set can only achieve its largest and smallest values on the boundary of the set.

Fuck indeed

Ok so this is a joke i read on a geek site somewhere before.. But i like it.

At least I entertain myself

Ok so I got bored, and this thought entered my mind and I felt compulsed to share it with the world. For those interested in getting it, look up "pair production" or "electron-positron pair production".

Summer Love

Well im officially fucked, exhausted.

I just felt like going for a run. So I did. Man im unfit.

Exams are over. Can't wait for my results. Here is a brief summary of how I went this semester.

Started off enrolled in 5 subjects and "the essay".

With two weeks to go I dropped one subject because I was gonna do shit either way.

I spent 21 hours the day/night before the essay was due typing up all 17 pages of it.

One subject was 90% coursework based, which I didn't know til the end when i realised there was no formal exam. So while I got 80/90 on the coursework most people got between 87 and 90 on that so I came out good, but relatively bad. Also the informal exam which was him asking us questions in his office on an individual basis to see how we coped coulda went better.

Two subjects were 3rd year subjects which should have been really easy. One I barely attended and did find it stupidly easy. The other I was sitting on something like 48/50 before the exam which was weighted 50 percent. But since I had to sit the exam seperately from everyone else and they all had the chance to find out something that was required for the exam I was severly handicapped and missed an entire question out of 5 or 6 questions.

Finally, my other subjects mark comes from a take-home exam which was weighted as 100% of the subject. It was insane. Didn't get anywhere near as much as I'd hoped done but the other two people in the class felt the same so that could go any way.

Now I await results and soon I'll go in and figure out what im gonna do for this thesis.

Other matters of business.

I've been trying hard to get Mel to fit into "the group", (perhaps "the set" might be a more adequade description, only ben and those bored enough to wiki will entirely get this one :) )
So yes trying to get Mel to fit in, but it's proving quite difficult, and really making me realise how disjoint the group has become. Perhaps the group is more like a union of groups. Each group is associative amongst it's elements, but two elements from different groups are not neccessarily associative. Sorry for the odd mathematical alalogue, just the word group has different meaning to me these days.

Anyways, what I mean is not really everyone gets along these days and it can be awkward as. Not only that but it feels like it's becoming close to that point where everyone starts being an adult. How weird. I mean, "the boys" have been in that place for a while now being somewhat adult/responsible, with J to be joining them in what I beleive to be like a week. (confirmation?) Lennice and Daz have been living together for ages but now finally have their own place and their own furniture and these days we go out for dinner instead of getting drunk. Amy seems to have found what looks (at least externally) fairly stable, like a propper adult relationship. I'm pretty sure most of you are starting to feel like your doing more adult things. I don't think it'll be long before everyone is looking for their own place and friday/saturday nights will consist of dinner and drinks, and maybe a card game or something.

I hope I didn't offend anyone leaving people out, just mentioned a few names as examples, I think everybody is growing up though. I personally can't wait to get out of home these days. But a current lack of employment makes that a little difficult. I just hope to christ I get this PhD money next july!

Hey there Melinda

I've got so much left to say, if every simple song i wrote to you would take your breath away, I'd write it all.

Ok so she doesnt actually read this, oh well. :) we've only been going out for 3 weeks lol it feels longer though.

Ok I planned on putting something far more constructive here, but im soooo fucking tired that I don't think i possible can... tomorrow

I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever...

My last exam is tomorrow. Haven't really studied unfortunately. I wish I got some motivation back. Seems like I keep trying to study then I get distracted and end up going to see Mel.

Gotta pick a project pretty damn soon too. I can either keep looking at the paper I did that essay on. Otherwise I'd like to look at doing something a little more original if possible. Though I have to make sure i dont bite off more than i can chew so to speak. Realistically I should be looking to optomise my marks, because I need "first class honours" to be even eligable for a PhD scholarship, which is kinda scary. While it is possible to do a PhD without the scholarship I don't think many people do because I don't think I could last another 3-3.5 years without an income. It turns out those scholarships are actually pretty damn decent too. From what I gather it works out to be somewhere in the vicinity of $350 a week. I can be happy with that :D

Anywho I should really look at some notes before going to bed and I should be asleep in 3 mins if i want my recommended 8 hours sleep prior to this exam.