Change of venue

Blog has been relocated again and has a post there.
volume-five.blogspot.com

Breakeven

Might make a resolution this year. Take it easy with females. No getting into anything serious or getting attached to anybody else.

In other news; I'm flat broke and this PhD thing is so confusing. I'm reading stuff but don't really think I'm taking all that much in and I'm not overly sure on what I'm meant to be doing and how long this confused phase is meant to last.

More than a holiday

Seems I start my PhD on monday. Scary shit. I've always thought I'm the only person like me, out on the extremes everywhere. How many people get accepted for PhD candidature and get arrested in the same fortnight?

Probably only for Ben and Rick

I've decided to make a blog for dumping questions I don't know the answer to in the hopes one of you know the answer or know somebody who does.
helpmyphd.blogspot.com

Who knows, dumping random questions may prove fruitful, at the very least it is guiltless procrastination. First question which is on there, is what is a stratified manifold?

Are we human, or are we dancer?

The song "Human" by The Killers has recently been receiving a bit of airplay and I must say when I first heard it I was curious as to what is was about. People tend to bag out the lyrics thinking it's pointless and arbitrary, however in an interview with Brandon Flowers (vocalist, keyboardist, lyricist of The Killers) he said he put a great deal of thought into the lyrics. The line "Are we human, or are we dancer?" is a reference to a comment made by controversial journalist and author Hunter S. Thomson saying that we were raising a generation of dancers. With that in mind I invite you to listen to the song and read the lyrics again.

I did my best to notice, when the call came down the line
Up to the platform of surrender, I was brought but I was kind
But sometimes I get nervous when I see an open door
Close your eyes clear your heart, cut the cord

Are we human, or are we dancer
My sign is vital my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human, or are we dancer

Pay my respects to grace and virture, send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance, they always did the best they could
And so long to devotion you taught me everything I know
Wave good bye wish me well, you've gotta let me go

Are we human, or are we dancer
My sign is vital my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human, or are we dancer

Will your system be alright?
When you dream of home tonight
There is no message we're receiving
Let me know, is your heart still beating?

Are we human, or are we dancer
My sign is vital my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human, or are we dancer
You've gotta let me know

Are we human, or are we dancer
My sign is vital my hands are cold
And I'm on my knees looking for the answer
Are we human, or are we dancer
You've gotta let me know

Are we human, or are we dancer
Are we human, or are we dancer



That aside, from looking for the name of the journo who said that, I ended up on an astrology page. I really should read up about the real ideas of astrology, all the tidal forces crap. I mean I know I've done the calculation and the position of Jupiter has less gravitational forces acting on me than the house next door but just maybe all this full moon shit has some kind of truth behind how it works. Maybe tidal forces really do mess with our brains? Some reading for another time

She's so lovely

Well this distinct lack of money is really starting to hit me hard. I have around $300 between my wallet and two accounts and no income. I have to pick up my new contact lenses "whenever I can" which cost $260 so don't see that happening in a hurry. Also there is the obvious Christmas coming up and at some point they are going to ask for money for that rather expensive window.

Man I dunno what else to say today. Emailed somebody else from uni so still waiting to find out about PhD. Felt slightly more motivated the other day so who knows, maybe I will be able to do it. Can't wait to get the income more than anything. Still seeking somebody to live with.

But only if you told me to

So since I last blogged. What's new?

Ah yes, I have disowned my father and been arrested. Both kind of happened at the same time. How exciting. Somehow I'm not as depressed as I would normally be. Normally when shit like this happens I'm pretty depressed for days. Maybe I'm fixed.

The thing that gets me most about Friday night, is that breaking that window is something my dad would do (and has done), and the fight was pretty much us blaming each other for the shit relationship we have and oh yeh I think the point that broke me was when he said something along the lines of I wish I'd never knocked you're mother up then I wouldn't have to worry about all this shit and drove off.

Ah, everybody though I had the perfect family life growing up(well at least Sean said that to me once a few years ago). Oh how very wrong they were.